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Just came from the hospital. Not feeling much right now, mostly shock. A few weeks ago my grandfather had a stroke and went into the hospital which understandibly put all of my family on edge. But as I write this his total is now 6 strokes. Words could not describe the shock and horror I felt at seeing the man I consider my father, mentor, and hero lying there feeble and helpless. He blankly stared around the room as I tried to tell him who I was and it didn't seem to register at all. Even worse were the bruises and scabs he had up and down his arms. This is my wost nightmare realized and I'm helpless to do anything about it. He's being pumped full of chemicals and what not that make him seem aware, which gives our family a false sense of hope...a very masochistic tease which clouds the reality that he doesn't have long before he passes on. Even worse is the rift going on in our family about how to handle the very likely death of my grandfather (think Terry Schaivo and you'll understand). There seems to be no right answer in this issue. But, I don't think I'll ever forget the image grandfather in that condition and the extreme sadness I'm feeling right now.
I hope none of you ever have to be put in this horrible position with your loved ones...I wouldn't like to inflict this upon even the worst of enemies.
Good health and happiness to you and your families, and raise a glass to my grandfather if you're so inclined.
Joe
I hope none of you ever have to be put in this horrible position with your loved ones...I wouldn't like to inflict this upon even the worst of enemies.
Good health and happiness to you and your families, and raise a glass to my grandfather if you're so inclined.
Joe
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